Reflections and Images

 I am not sure why, but lately I have been going back to my music habit in middle school. After deleting embarrassing videos in my YouTube liked playlist, I came across a lot of old music videos. Some made me cringe while others piqued my interest. These included Colbie Caillat, Sara Bareilles, etc. Curious, I decided to listen to these singers again on Spotify. After a week or so, I rewatched a lot of music videos on YouTube. Some songs like Lizstomania or 1901 gave me good memories of the old days. I found them entertaining, but I didn't really like that I was using YouTube for pure entertainment. Something didn't feel right about that choice. I don't know why I am questioning an activity that most people do without feeling any guilt.  The reason for my uneasy feelings is that I don't like how I was using YouTube as a source of instant gratification or pleasure. I get more out of YouTube by using it to learn about self-improvement or productivity from channels such as...