Recently, I received good news that I done well in a competition. Despite the fact I was happy with my results, I still wasn't satisfied. Even if I am aware that I did well in comparison to all the other participants in the competition, I end up comparing myself to the top 0.1% of participants. This comparison makes me look like I am below average. Although I am constantly told by my counselor and parents not to compare myself, I got to admit that it is hard not to do this. It may appear that as we go up the ladder, we will finally reach the point where we are finally content with ourselves. However, I have not yet found that destination. As I go up the ladder, I end up becoming more greedy for rewards and setting higher expectations for myself. When will this vicious cycle ever end?
This is a blog where I write about my feelings, thoughts, and life. By blogging, I hope I can know myself better.
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